Update

Exactly one month ago I was pretty excited to be moving, now that i've been here for awhile. I'm not happy still. The school portion of my life i'm highly enjoying. The classmates are a bunch of interesting individuals, definitely a better school life then my high school years. College life is good, for the school anyways. The people however out of school.. reminds me of the ones back home. At the beginning days of living here I was really happy. I was hanging with people everyday basically. Nowadays, im usually alone in my dorm, either upset or feeling withdrawn from others because of "how I am". I thought i'd have a change compared to my hometown, but, im yet again wrong. What im thinking now is just do stuff for myself. I still have a lot of my life to go threw. I have hit a bad point right now but things will turn around again. I would still like to meet some new people here. Haven't really. I just keep falling down. I hate that feeling. I'm sick of crying and blaming myself for every bad thing that happens in life. I know it's not true but my past has destroyed me.