Frustration

Oh man, its 2010 and im already upset, it never changes for me, but, I find writing my feelings out is a sense of coping with what's going on around me. It never slows down with wanting to be with someone hey? I always feel like I need that guy around , especially when I am getting older. I turn 21 in 9 days.. so I feel like I should be atleast having the picture in my mind of the guy I could see being the one.. or atleast hes coming into the picture.. but thats not why I am frustrated. I am actually frustrated in my father. I hate how he thinks so old fashion like.. he assumes that finding a job is as easy as snapping your fingers together. I wish it was, I just finished college as a nurse so I WILL get work.. just he makes it out as a time limit.. I have only been finished for two weeks.. he assumes its so easy, guess what, its not when you live in a small town full of NOTHING! if it was a bigger city like Vancouver or Calgary.. I might be in luck right away. For now, I am hoping I do get a job soon so I can move away to a bigger city eventually. Right now I want the job, the car.. and eventually the boyfriend.. but, I know all those things will come, WITH TIME!! A friend has told me many times not to stress about the little things but, sometimes, you can't help it. I get stronger every damn time though. :)